Archive for March, 2007

Speech of a Loser

Saturday, March 24th, 2007

Mapagpanggap: Malungkot ako. Hmmmm.. pwede kong sabihing ewan pero alam ko kung bakit eh. Tumatawa ako, masayang nagkwekwento, umaawit ng mga masasayang awitin pero malungkot ako. Alam mo ba iyon?

Illusyonada: Gusto kung paniwalaan ang aking sarili na… alam mo iyon. Para lang sumaya ako. Para may kaiga-igayang pangyayari naman sa buhay ko. Masayang gawin iyon eh. Kahit papaano, masayang lokohin ang sarili paminsan-minsan.

Takas: Pangarap kong pumunta sa Ireland. Gusto kong umalis sa Pilipinas. Malay mo, makakatulong iyon para makalimutan ko lahat. O kahit man lang mawala iyong importansiya noon sa akin.

MM: Ano ba kayo? Mapagpanggap, hindi masama ang malungkot paminsan-minsan. Ipakita mo ito sa iba, huwag mong ikubli. Huwag kang matakot. Tao ka. Nakakaramdam din. Illusyonada, oo naman. Masayang mangarap pero nakakatakot ang mangarap LANG. Gumawa ka ng paraan. Kumilos ka. Walang mangyayari kung ganyan ka lang habambuhay. Takas, minsan kailangan talaga nating iwanan ang mga alaala ng kahapon. Pero maari rin natin itong gawin sa pamamagitan ng pagharap sa mga ito. Hindi mo maintindihan? Hindi ganoon, ayaw mo lang intindihin.

Out-of-the-Blue-Messages

Tuesday, March 6th, 2007

***Friday overnight with Macoy, Stephy, Ana, Nur and Lia was a blast! I love the stolen, scandalous shot, Stephy! Thanks for that! But i won’t post it. Na-ah. Oh, maybe I would put it in my friendster private photos. Anyway, I really had fun. Super super fun. It’s so nice to bring out our repressed sides. I hope it won’t be a habit…or else, it won’t do us any good at all. Hahaha! Anyway, I love and enjoyed the session yesterday. I didn’t expect that from you. But I hope you’d get out of the shell you built. We’re here, Stephy. Don’t be afraid to be yourself. We love you for who you are. Oh well, that’s me. But I think, you should listen to Macoy too. Macoy’s more in tune to the "world" than I am. I’m more idealistic and I live up to that. *wink, wink* Labshu, Stephy! *tight hug*

Macoy, go with that. I’d rather see you happy than bitter. But if something happens again, we can do what we used to do. Oh, and is still doing. Hahaha! Labshu din, Macoy! Go lang. Feel free to crash into me if you’ll be bitter and rotten again. I’m happy for you. Super. *tight hug*

Ally, don’t be so sad. We always feel rejected by the ones we love at one point in our life. Many points pala for you. Kidding! That’s just it. Wait if you can. Get out of it if you want. It’s up to you. I just hope that you’ll take care of yourself now. Sabi mo nga, "May hangganan ang katangahan." I hope you’ll tell that to yourself too. No offense meant, tsong… *hug tight*

***Love, thanks for the walk and talk. For everything that you’re doing for me. I could not ask for more. Grabe, lifetime partner it is! *woot, woot*

***Kai and Des, I’m a coward for posting this here and for not telling you straight. I’m really sorry guys… really sorry. By the way, I miss you two so much! *hug ko kayo super tight*

***Nievz and Yan, I enjoyed our simple and memorable celebration of our third anniv. I just wish that we’ll be complete in time. *sigh* Sorry for being such a nuisance… my voice is not cooperating. Bedroom voice. But people understand what I say now. What a relief! Hahaha! Thanks for the concern! Yeah, I’m taking care of myself now. It’s just so hard to maintain it given lots of work load. Oh, I miss high school life! *hug, hug*

***For you, I don’t want to think about it now. I want to take a rest. Rest from analyzing and reflecting on it. I know that you’re not asking me to do those. I am just doing them out of my nature. I just figured that taking a rest doesn’t just mean rest for me but also keeping my hands off of you. I guess, I have been holding on tight to you and you end up getting smothered. I believe you wouldn’t mind me going away for a while. Be happy always! I hope I wouldn’t see the ****i**** in your eyes (which I always see) the next time I’ll see you.